More than one reason

You're the reason I'm awake

Why I can't sleep at night

The reason why I can't cry

Why I'm still angry and want to fight

You're the reason I feel so small

Why I've been down for so long

The reason I can't stand up

Why I feel I'm always wrong

You're the reason I can't change

Why I'm afraid to stand tall

The reason my life won't mend

Why I built up the wall

You're the reason I hate my reflection

Why I'm staring into dark eyes

The reason I hide my pain

Why I'm so easy to pull apart

The reason why I'm empty

Why I have this bleeding heart

Crossing

I have to wake up now

This life can't be real

You are not here with me

This has to be all a lie

So hard to appreciate

This life you're giving me

Crossing into unknown land

Waiting for the bridge to fall

But then I see you there

With open arms to take me

You're not leaving me at all

Don't let me push you away

The barricades are coming down

It's taking longer than it has before

I'm half way across the bridge

The strong wind will blow

From time to time

But with your hand in mine

I promise to hold on

almost a new year

It's almost another new year yet I can't seem to recall the year that has just passed me by. A lot has happened in my life an all of it for the better. Still working out those bad habits of mine, got to bite my tongue, smile and nod. I'm slowly learning to be a sheep and follow the crowd. Something I told myself I would never do.

Still got the same job with the same shit going down everyday but at the moment I stand alone as a won man army in the middle of a war that is invisible to everyone else. My wish came true and I've proved all the cynical people out there who don't believe in love or there are no decent men left on this earth. Well maybe I just found the last one and I'm not giving him up for anyone or anything.

Still having some down days. That past of mine still keeps my mind alert I try not to let the cannons fly loose as often but I still get caught off guard, just don't get into my line of fire.

Where I'm at is a good place an in my mind it's all sunny from here, over the first initial hump and I can tell it's going to be a sweet ride in from here on.

Have a very merry Christmas to all and I'll still be blogging in the New Year. Enjoy all and have a good and safe journey into 2008!!!

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We say life is wonderful

And works in mysterious ways

I know that this is true

On the darkest of days

I always see your face

When no light will shine through

You are going to be my strength

The only one I believe

Who can save me from the past

As long as you can keep

A smile on my face

And kiss me everyday

I'll give my heart to you

My mind, body and soul

I'll love you in everyway